ASHLEY Cain has told of the ‘difficult conversation’ he had with his ex Safiyya Vorajee after finding out his friend was pregnant.
The reality star, 33, split from aesthetic practitioner Safiyya, 35, in April last year after supporting each other through the tragic death of their daughter - Azaylia Diamond Cain - to a rare form of cancer.
Despite this, they have dedicated their lives to The Azaylia Foundation - fighting the shortage of doctors and treatments specialised in childhood cancer, while also supporting families requiring treatment abroad.
Given their close relationship, Ashley, who is set to welcome a boy in January, said it was important for him to sit down with Safiyya about the pregnancy.
He said: “It was painful for Safiyya but it was also painful for me as well to talk to Saffiya.
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“Safiyya and I haven’t been together for a while now and it is inevitable that at some stage people are going to move on with their lives - that doesn’t mean that we can’t be friends and have an amazing relationship.
“I know Safiyya will always support me and I will always be there to support Safiyya.
“It wasn’t an easy conversation or filled with smiles but it was a conversation that had a lot of truth and respect.”
However Ashley said that he cannot help but feel ‘guilty’ at the prospect of holding his newborn son next month while his little girl is in heaven.
“When I think about being a daddy again and bringing my son into this world - obviously I do feel guilty because I wish and pray that Azaylia could be here as well,” he said.
“I know that Azaylia would have been the most incredible big sister in the world because she is a fighter - strong and courageous.”
Fighting back tears, he said: “It is tough. Life is tough and everyday for me is tough - as soon as he is old enough I want to take him down to Azaylia's resting place.
“I want him to know who his big sister is and I want him to understand what she has done for this world.”
