ANGEL Strawbridge has finally broken her silence on her leaked expletive-filled rant behind the scenes of Escape to the Chateau.
The former Channel 4 star has confirmed she refuses to apology for her shocking outburst in which she branded one of the crew members working on her reality show a "f***ed up little c**t".
Angel and her husband Dick were dumped by Channel 4 after they found themselves caught up in a backstage bullying scandal centred around the leaked recording.
In a new interview, the star has remained defiant and claims she stands by what she said at the time.
Angel was speaking to Elizabeth Daly on the How To Fail podcast where she opened up on the incident for the first time.
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Speaking to the show's host, Angel said: "I was the one in the wrong for losing my temper, but do you know what, I will not apologise - he was so disrespectful in our house, he was so upsetting to me, my family, and I stand by what I did.
"If I was to apologise and say 'I'm sorry for using bad language and chucking you out' I would just be disingenuous to me.
"Would I like to erase that? Yeah, I'd love to. But I would also like to erase what he was doing because my rage just didn't pop out of nowhere."
She went on to insinuate she was provoked by the show crew member as she went on: "It grew over time and it was provoked and therefore I'm not ashamed of what happened in the end, I just wish it hadn't happened."
The stars fans were left stunned when the explosive claims surrounding Angel and Dick first came to light.
Recalling the foul-mouthed rant for the first time, she continued: "The actual incident, it actually happened a long time ago - so it happened about six years ago.
"We had so many amazing people filming Escape to the Chateau, but in this particular quite small time frame, we had someone that wasn't particularly very nice.
"His behaviour was completely unacceptable, but it didn't just happen in one little moment, it happened over lots of different occasions.
"It was a high point towards the end of filming a series. We set a lot of stories in parallel activity. We were particularly busy, and I think that's why we just didn't have the head space to address his behaviour."
Angel went onto allege that the unnamed crew member was "horrible" to the children in a series of explosive claims.
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She continued: "He was not very nice, he was doing these weird pictures of Dick killing animals and posting them on his Instagram. He was so horrible with the children.
"There was this one incident, and I actually truly believe that because he knew he was caught, I think in my heart that is why he set up this filming.
"Because the way that he was acting was how he'd never acted with me before. You don't accidentally film someone when you're not filming. Completely happened secretively and on purpose.
"He broke all of the kids' fishing rods and the next day I was upstairs and he came up in a really very out of character way for him and was really in my face, in a really angry like he'd lost it kind of way.
"I've not listened back, it makes me feel a little bit sick if I do. But obviously all of my friends have, and they're like 'I can hear you' - he actually took out what he said - 'I can here you gradually getting more angry, more angry, more angry'.
"And then I just say like 'get out of my f***ing house'. I can't even remember what I said. I think I said a really bad word beginning with c, I think that's how p***ed off I must have been."
Angel continued to explain the incident at length as she and admitted she was shocked at how "global" the bullying scandal became.
She admitted she felt "ashamed" her children and their school friends would be able to access the leaked recording and read about the incident online.
During the conversation, she went on to assure that she wasn't proud of using bad language but could never say she "regretted" it.
Angel went on: "We don't teach our children to use bad language, but when you're pushed that far and are seeing red, it's kind of hard.
"I don't want to say I regret using it. I stand proud for just defending myself at that moment against his behaviour. I probably wish that I hadn't said the c-word. I don't even like that word."
Escape to the Chateau was axed over the scandal with Dick and Angel permanently dropped from working with Channel 4.
Fans were left shocked by the audio which has been unearthed by Deadline following rumours of bullying accusations from the set of the wildly popular reality show.
In the heated altercation, Angel was seemingly left furious at a schedule change which is thought to have occurred at some point during filming of the first four seasons.
Launching into a foul-mouthed tirade, she screamed: “Who is that inspired by when you’re f*****g working at the chateau?
"Just tell me that and then you can f*****g leave and this is me f*****g angry because I think you’re a f****d up little c***."
Channel 4 confirmed it had cut ties with the couple after an investigation was launched into alleged clashes with show bosses.
Prior to the leaked recording, the broadcaster confirmed it will not be working with the reality couple again.
A source close to the series explained the relationship between the production company Two Rivers and Dick, 63, and Angel, 44, had deteriorated.
The unrest prompted Channel 4 to launch an independent investigation to find out what had been going on.
The findings resulted in the broadcaster completely ending its relationship with Dick and Angel Strawbridge.
