DANNIELLA Westbrook has admitted she had to pull out of a five-figure telly job last year due to her "nightmare" operation in Turkey.
The former EastEnders star, 49, says a rogue doctor slapped her and operated on her face without anaesthetic in the terrifying ordeal.
Danniella had been hoping to undergo facial reconstruction after years of battling Osteoporosis and a collapsed septum due to her previous cocaine addiction.
But she claimed the doc inserted metal rods into her face without her permission, which nearly poked through her top lip, before shouting expletives and taking her phone away when she tried to film the shocking scenes.
As a result of her ordeal, Danniella says she was forced to cancel big plans to take part in Channel 4's SAS: Who Dares Wins.
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This also meant she lost out on a hefty pay cheque, too.
Speaking on Natalie Bailey's Confidence Mastery podcast, Danniella admits: "I was meant to do it last year but couldn't do it because of the surgery."
She added: "I'm going to do it. The only thing that stands in my way is my mind, when I actually think about it.
"The only thing that does it is if me tells me I can't. Me. I don't want to fail."
Danniella continued: "Yeah, I'm going to go and do that. I'm petrified.
"It's not even about the physical stuff. My son said to me, 'How are you going to stand there with somebody this close to you, shouting in your face and say my son doesn't speak like that and I gave birth to him?'
"He said, 'You have to be quiet. You're not going to be able to do that'. But I am. I've 50 this year. I need to do something.
"I've done all the physical ones like Dancing On Ice but I need to do this."
In May, Channel 4 confirmed it is axing the civilian version of SAS: Who Dares Wins. It will, however, continue to make the celebrity version.
Meanwhile, Danniella has vowed to foot the £500,000 NHS bill it will take to repair her face following her botched op
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She had previously been offered half a million pounds worth of corrective surgery on the NHS but decided to go to Turkey instead.
Danniella told The Sun in an exclusive chat last month: "I was doing it in Liverpool with a professor there. I should have stayed with him but a friend convinced me to go to Turkey. It's my own stupid fault.
"I'm going back to him though but I'm gonna pay for it this time. I'd been quoted £500,000 before, I don't care what it is.
"If I don't have it done, the palate in the back of my mouth will collapse and I'll suffocate to death.
"When I went to Turkey, I could have died. I could have died if someone had just botched it any further. I'm not the youngest person in the world and I haven't been the wellest."
