CHANELLE Hayes has spoken of her struggle to stop binging after having weight loss surgery in a heartbreaking post.
The former Big Brother star had a secret gastric sleeve op in August 2020 after ballooning to 17st.
The honest mum, who shed an incredible 10st, shared before and after photos demonstrating her weight loss as she opened up about the challenges of living with an eating disorder.
She said in an emotional Instagram post that it had been a very bad day and she had lost all control.
She penned: "Trigger Warning ‼️‼️‼️‼️
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"Had a bad day today with my eating. I know many of you follow me because of my weight loss journey and disordered eating so I don’t want to hide that I’ve had a mare of a day when it comes to moderation.
"I’ve binged all day long on everything you can think of.
"Right now I’m feeling disgusted at myself, guilty, out of control, poorly, uncomfortable and angry."
Chanelle continued: "But I need to remember this is normal. I can’t just 'cure' binge eating disorder with weight loss surgery.
"This evening when the kids are in bed I am going to do some of the CBT exercises I’ve been taught to try to regain control of my actions towards food and understand that eating badly for one day or eating certain types of food isn’t 'wrong'.
"Even as I type this (being completely stuffed full) I am eating the crusts Frankie left from his pizza. I am not hungry. This isn’t me being greedy… I cannot stop. Why am I doing this? The answer is: I don’t know."
Chanelle said she wanted to raise awareness about this specific disordered way of eating.
She ended her post: "My body has changed, but my mind remains a work in progress."
Chanelle previously told how her extreme weight gain ruined her life as she refused to leave the house for a year because she was so ashamed by her size 18 figure.
The nurse said she “feels a million times better” since the sleeve surgery, but said she wants a tummy tuck because she is worried about the loose skin.
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“I’m 8st now and a dress size 6-8. Last summer, I was around 9st 5lb and before having the sleeve fitted, I was a size 22 and 17st 4lb," she told OK! magazine.
"I’ve actually been really stressed with university deadlines and the children’s schedules with schools and their dads and I think that’s caused the weight loss.
