LOUISE Thompson has recalled a "rollercoaster" few days where she thought she was "going to die" after being rushed to hospital.
The Made In Chelsea star, 32, has spent the past week in the medical ward and previously told fans it was due to an "unexpected situation".
The medical dash forced her to miss a flight to luxury holiday destination St Lucia before it was confirmed she had been forced to seek treatment after she haemorrhaged at home.
Louise has been candid in discussing her traumatic labour and consequent PTSD following the birth of her son Leo, now aged one.
Today, she has addressed her "wild ride week" in an emotional Instagram post, accompanied by scenes of a mini bonfire at her west London home.
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A new video showed her fiancé Ryan Libbey and son Leo waving at the flames as the family of three "burned bad memories."
In her lengthy caption she wrote: "Gosh the last few days have been a rollercoaster. From thinking I was going to die again, to being allowed home all in the space of a few days. What a whirlwind. Not sure I’m quite ready to digest it to be honest.
"Emergency scenarios are a WILD RIDE. You get NO prep time. It’s just bam, zero to hero in a matter of minutes… or hours if you’re lucky. It does strange things to your mind.
"The emotions are mental, from an adrenalin fuelled ambulance phone call, to freeze (what I think might help, but obviously does nothing to prevent blood flow/loss), to laughter, to tears, to anger, to shouting, to apologising, to guilt. Powerful stuff.
"Just when I was doing really well too.
"Anyway, I don’t wanna get too dark and dirty today. I am manning up and am going to try my hardest NOT to wallow in self pity. The thing about having kids (and a family you love and care about) is that you don’t really have time to collapse into a heap and start processing. You have to put on your big girl pants, and be strong, which is hard when you crave being nurtured like a child yourself…
"Actually the fact i’m even saying this is a good thing.
"I recognise the privileged position I am in today. I have learnt from experience (invaluable). I am stronger. When I left hospital last time I absolutely did NOT wear my big girl pants, instead I had a phobia of my cupboards and drawers and had to wear the same style of massive pants for months on end… and I was stuck on the sofa, i’m surprised I didn’t actually get glued to it, like those people that have to get fork truck lifted out of their house because they’ve meshed. I was weak and I couldn’t hide the pain from anyone before. I couldn’t brush things under the carpet. Now my brain is playing ball.
"Something that WAS really challenging about coming home was seeing little Leo. Obviously this was the thing I was most excited about. I have to be careful with my body and rest rest rest, but all I want to do is scoop him up. We’ve developed this solid bond (to the point where he finds comfort in nuzzling in and resting on my chest and he’d rather be there than on other people and he gets teary when he has to leave, phew)."
In a later message, she added: "Anyway, things have settled down a little and we've decided to do a burning ritual, hence this weird video, LOL.
"It's really strange, but i've been physically ok(ish) for months and months, and then BAM something really bad happened to my body again. I lost a lot a lot of blood. I think around 3L which sounds like over half my body's supply…although I have to bear in mind I'm also really small. "
Previously, PT Ryan took to Instagram to inform fans of her latest health twist.
Referring to her ongoing health battle, the dad-of-one said: "Last Friday it got flipped on its head again. Louise haemorrhaged at home, again.
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"Rushed to hospital for surgery and close monitoring for four days.
"Louise is home now, stable and doing well. She's a warrior!"
Ryan said they suffered another blow this week after they had to cancel a two-week holiday to St Lucia as their son Leo had fallen ill.
"Leo has picked up impetigo from nursery. Dad is tired," he wrote in his latest post.
"We were supposed to be landing in St Lucia about now for a two-week break. I'll be back online soon."
